Mr. Dika Decides to Kill Himself
Mr. Dika Decides to Kill Himself

Summary/Abstract: Mr. Dika decided to kill himself. Mr. Dika could have no idea, not the slightest idea, nor could he know or understand how much that decision would change his life. He decided to kill himself by sheer chance, so unexpectedly that even he was caught by surprise. Never before had Mr. Dika thought of killing himself. He actually never thought about death in general, philosophically speaking – as he would usually say sarcastically when mentioning or even just thinking about that word – philosophically, whereas concerning his own death, he never thought about it, nor did he have either a conscious or unconscious drive for it. He was not even aware of the phrase "death happens to others." Generally speaking, Mr. Dika had built in himself an interior shield of protection against the word death. But, as often happens to such people, it took him only a moment to be seized, overwhelmed, and weighed down by the idea of killing himself. He had a fear of heights and at the moment he was seized by the idea of killing himself, he saw himself falling from a high tower onto the rocky crags below. He saw himself twisting in the air, his coat, his trousers, his hair, fluttering – and sensed no fear at all. On the contrary, he felt that it was a bright exit, a way out of his life.

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